Open Letter of Apology From BigRedMan

*bigredman* · #1 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

I just want to apologize for my actions on this website recently. I was told by my doctor that I have Gastric Cancer.

Its funny how the human mind reacts to such news. I've always been such a strong minded person, but this set me for a loop. I was suddenly consumed with anger, and I lashed out at everyone, including my family, my friends, and even myself. I became virtually the bull in a china shop.

I put my fist through the window in my doctor's door. I yelled and cursed at my wife and kids to get away from me. I took a swing at my best friend who tried to settle me down. I drove my forehead into the mirror above our bathroom sink, cutting my head. I got on here, obsessively deleting my photos, profile, and posts, plus lashed out in a thread (fortunately RamWraith deleted it).

I want to apologize to you here on ClanRam.Com. If any of you saw what I posted before it got deleted, I didn't mean it, and I hope you will forgive my behavior.

I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you. Oh, and I still plan on attending the Bash 2006 in St. Louis.

P.S. I hope the surgery doesn't leave a bad scar. I'll never be able to wear my belly dancing outfit again!

**HUbison** · #2 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

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I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you.

That's all I needed to hear.

**RamWraith** · #3 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

Now this sounds like the Red we all know and love. Thanks bud, and like I said we got your back!!

*RamsFan16* · #4 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

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Originally Posted by RamWraith

Now this sounds like the Red we all know and love. Thanks bud, and like I said we got your back!!

I agree. BigRed we all accept your appology. It had to be very hard to hear that.

Keep on keepin' on!

*r8rh8rmike* · #5 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

I pity the disease that tries to get in BRM's way. Godspeed my friend.

*RammieGirl* · #6 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

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Originally Posted by RamWraith

Now this sounds like the Red we all know and love. Thanks bud, and like I said we got your back!!

I second that!!! I kinda, sorta think that it would take a lot more than some cancer thingee to take you down!!!!

*BIG-BLUE* · #7 (**permalink**) -09-06-2006

were here for you BRM. if you ever need some one to talk to drop me a line. like i said stay strong & keep that great humor you alive

**RamsFanSam** · #8 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

Dude, I haven't been on here for a few days, then I log on and see this.

I don't know what to say...except what do you have to apologize for?

Just do me a favor...kick the cancer's ass. I doubt if me & Mom can pull off the bash this year, but I am really going to try to make the 2007 bash....and your big red butt better be there!

*AlphaRam* · #9 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

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Originally Posted by bigredman

I just want to apologize for my actions on this website recently. I was told by my doctor that I have Gastric Cancer.

Its funny how the human mind reacts to such news. I've always been such a strong minded person, but this set me for a loop. I was suddenly consumed with anger, and I lashed out at everyone, including my family, my friends, and even myself. I became virtually the bull in a china shop.

I put my fist through the window in my doctor's door. I yelled and cursed at my wife and kids to get away from me. I took a swing at my best friend who tried to settle me down. I drove my forehead into the mirror above our bathroom sink, cutting my head. I got on here, obsessively deleting my photos, profile, and posts, plus lashed out in a thread (fortunately RamWraith deleted it).

I want to apologize to you here on ClanRam.Com. If any of you saw what I posted before it got deleted, I didn't mean it, and I hope you will forgive my behavior.

I'm going to kick this disease's ass, I promise you. Oh, and I still plan on attending the Bash 2006 in St. Louis.

P.S. I hope the surgery doesn't leave a bad scar. I'll never be able to wear my belly dancing outfit again!

Channel your anger into fighting that cancer ish. I plan on meeting your mangy belly-dancing butt at the Bash.

*jkramsfan* · #10 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

BigRedMan, no need to apologize to the clan,we are all keeping you in our thoughts and prayers and looking forward to throwing back a couple of adult beverages at the bash,see you there.

*UtterBlitz* · #11 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

Darn it all. I need to spend more time here so that I don't miss the contraversal posts that get deleted.

Good to see you back running your mouth, or keyboard, BigRedman. :up:

*Bruce=GOAT* · #12 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

No apology needed man. You contribute a lot to this board and remember that we are always here for you. I am just glad to hear that you are in better spirits and ready to win this battle. I hope to meet you in person at the Bash.

*Fat Pang* · #13 (**permalink**) -10-06-2006

No apologies necessary big man.

Let's not rule out the bellydancing either, personally I've always had a thing for walking around hotel bars naked..........

Kick it's tail!

**txramsfan** · #14 (**permalink**) -14-06-2006

these 3 B's definately should be considered in the "killer" category:

BRM
Beer
Belly Dancing....in that order

Beer googles are optional.....